Rambles of a long-distance relationship girlfriend.

Do you all girls out here ever feel this frustrated?

life has been moving on so fast yet again so slow for us since we are so many miles away from each other. Have you ever gotten into a relationship where you are asleep when he is awake, and he wakes up just when you are about to hit the sack? It's difficult. It's also difficult when one of you thinks that he/she is doing a lot yet the other still lives comfortably, sleeps when he /she is tired, hangs up on you when he/she feels convenient. I mean is that even a relationship? Are there times that you feel like whatever you have will never work, but then your soul just can't drop the “I am tired with this” because you are used to someone calling every morning until they don't and you have to inform them that you are awake, and because you love this person too much to keep your ego and unhappy moments away and decide to be excited when he calls.

I am typically rambling and ranting because I need to be close to this human that I love. I need him to stop being frustrated by the poor connection my network decides to give me, I need him to see that I am trying.

So a couple of days ago, we had a nice discussion on what we should do to make this easier for us. The recommendations were as follows;

1. We were to share our interests, the type of songs, etc, I even wonder how we skipped that stage since we are presently almost a year old.
2. Since we are far away, sharing our highest and lowest points of every day was going to stop the mundanity in our conversation
3. Being detailed in our day to day also was a plus, since it was going to assist us to get to know each other more in the absence of shared experiences.

Am I excited to talk to this guy all the time, yes? Do I keep quiet when I answer the call most times, yes? I mean I don’t know how to answer the “what’s on your mind bebe” question. Its really treacherous to ask me that because I’m getting there, relax don’t pressure me lol.

Amidst all these, I discovered that I valued time given by someone. When giving someone your full attention, that means you have left living your life by your actual plans and altered your day for someone. And if you are someone who doesn't like going against your trail of plans, then you do understand what it means to do so for your love. I do that all the time and in the recent past, it has been more of work than pleasure.

I have also discovered that I thought a relationship doeS take work, It surely does. You see, the guy I am dating is caring, loving, he places not throws compliments here and there, he apologizes even when I am on the wrong; which has made me a more apologetic person even to my siblings and friends, he makes me feel secure, I have never, in any way had a reason to doubt him, we listen to each other, we support each other dreams even when they seem absurd and challenging-i mean isn't that why they are called dreams, and he is so damn patient, if I were him, I would have given up on me. We do sound like a perfect couple right now, but you know better now, there is no perfect couple we are just trying to love each other without creating wounds and reopening scars and learning to apologize and understand each other and our different cultures, goals, and traits.